crapz. wad e hell. i gonna die for metbio paper le lar. misread a word, and there goes my 8marks qns. saw e 1st qns of section a, 12 marks, and i was like, how to do?!?!!? den see everyone start to flip thru notes, then i suddenly realised i should juz flip also. dots. but in e end, no use. sians! i pray i dont need to see mmm again next sem. dont mind her lessons, but her paper's a killer~ 0_0 *praying hard*

aniway, was out at bugis wif ouyang, grace, chin, benji, dev, dehong, chian hwee and choonseng. simply love our class. love gTc. we r growing closer. u guys rock! =) ate at pasta mania and was crapping (as usual) thruout dinner. laughed and made so much noise. oppps. but yeah... who cares. lols. went to buy *smth* den took neoprints. yeahhhhhhhh! love u guys!

oh yeah, n cuz chin tagged mi, so i gotta do this. =)
write 10 paragraphs to 10 different frens in ur life without listing out their names, and tagged 5 ppl to continue doing things. here i go......

1. a senior whom i know thru cchm choir. thought u looked kinda aloof initially. but as time passed by, realised that u're actually a nice person who is always there to lend mi ur listening ear, and that's how our friendship grew. wont forget e times when we always go out together after choir practices or during the wkends, even if it was juz for a simple chat over coffee. though now in different institutions le, but am glad that we are still keeping in touch wif each other, and i'll never forget this friendship that we have... =)

2. thnks for always being there for mi whenever i need u. u always gave mi advices and support, and yeah, u gave us a cute little leroy! (think u should know who u r le) i know i have made u worry many times le, esp. over my emotional ties wif him. but u've been a truly good mother, always there to listen to mi, to be able to understand how i feel, and at the same time encourage mi to let go of him thru e passage of time. sry if i've been very ren xing, but dont worry, i will b a good girl n help u take care of leroy! yeah! now tt u're working in oilpods, muz jia you and rest more ya. love u! forever a part of my life. =)

3. hey my karcheng. i know i've disappoint u many times cuz i insisted on being wif him and making myself handle e pain alone, and tt u were unhappy wif mi for doing so. sry for being so stubborn... but i appreciate e fact tt u were always there to help mi, to cheer mi up (and always succeed in doing so), and to tolerate my crappy behaviour whenever im down or feeling crazy. i rmb e chats that we have, sometimes late into e night, and how u will accomodate mi sometimes, though u always zhong se qing qin! lols. still, u're e best couz one can ever have. i know u're busy wif ur own work and school, so muz take care ya... and i promise u i wont do stupid things again. u muz buck up and find a nice girl for urself as well ya. *hugs*

4. my new mummy! (guess u should know who u r as well le.. hees..) can sae i din realli know u tt well in yr1, cuz i used to think u were e quiet quiet kind. somehow, we juz seem to grow closer in yr 2, n since then, i started to confide in u. i can only, thks thnks n thnks for all ur support and advice, and i promise i will smile more and stay happy. i know i've made u worry over my problems, but i will be a good nuer from nw on. mummy u also stay happy ya. i will b here for u always, and realli glad to be ur nuer! ah love! =)

5.nt realli sure when did we grow close to each other, but i agree wif u tt it should be somewhere after ur bday. =) since then, we keep going out together, be it to shop, study, or simply juz confiding in each other. u muz jia you.. i understand how tough it is, esp. when im in a almost similar situation. dont give up. u're alrd halfway there. keep going and everything will turn out juz fine. i will be here to help u any time. also, thnks for being there when i need a listening ear.. when im feeling down or crazy.. love u loads girl!

6. this girl arz.. dont know how come we suddenly become so close de. somemore nt really considered in same class, though i've seen u since pri.1. lols.. really enjoyed ur company, and u always managed to make mi laugh when im having my mood swings, esp. during this period. u muz take good care of ur own health ya, nw that u're working and studying at e same time. u know my hse unit, and it will be opened whenever u wanna pop by. jia you girl! =p

7. think i only got to know u well this sem ba... last time din really talk to u in class de. lols.. den now when our class suddenly seem to bond together, i realise tt u're a realli nice fren. always laughing and crapping, and can give mi so much advices to make mi feel better. though i always promise u tt i will stay happy, but in e end, i will still revert back to e sad side. can onli say, im really very grateful to u for being there for mi all this while, and for letting mi find a good fren in u! oh ya, n we shall make our club prosper o! hees.. love u girl! -turtle rocks-

8. used to find u ok. but over e mths, u've really changed. i hope ur character is not like tt by nature, cuz if it is, den u are going to offend e whole world, be it now or future. u've already made us all frustrated by ur words and actions. words do hurt. next time before u say anything, please do think thru and see if ur words gonna hurt somebody. u're simply too competitive as well. though we cant really blame u for tt, but it has got to e point where ur competitiveness is getting on our nerves. we dont wish to isolate u, but sometimes, we juz cant tolerate ur attitude. forgive us if we've made u upset. but please do some self-reflection and change for e better. we will accept u back if u realli do change. but if u dont, den dont blame us for drifting away from u. we're trying our best to be nice to u n everything, so dont push us to a corner and make us ignore u. we're juz trying to help u to change for e better.

9. dont know if u will read my blog, but i wanna say a big sorry to u. u were my best fren since sec 1.. u know mi inside-out, and understand how i feel and wad im thinking without needing mi to say anything out. u used to be there for mi.. i still can rmb e times when we chatted wif each other everydae, even though we were in e same class. still can rmb how i used to go to ur place to hang out every other day, and how we used to confide in each other. i know i was in e wrong, but tt mistake cost us to lose this friendship tt i really treasure so much. hope u're doing fine and well now.. take lots of care..

10. i know u wont be reading this blog.. but i still wanna dedicate this to u. i still rmb clearly how we know each other.. how we used to go out for dinner wif *ah ma*.i rmb e 1st time we went to e beach for a walk, cuz i told u how much i love e beach. u gave mi everything tt i wanted, be it materially or emotionally. every little things tt we did together, i can rmb clearly, and it will forever be in my heart. simply cuz they r precious memories of us. i put my heart and soul into our r/s... i dont mind suffering alone, thinking tt one day, we can be together officially. so i endured. i still rmb e day when i witness e painful scene, and yet, i endured, all e while telling myself u do love mi. but now, i ask u, do u? im nt trying to be some great girlfren by enduring... i do all those cuz i love u more than anything. u've become my pillar of support, esp. after my grandpa's death. u know urself tt i put u as top priority in whatever i do... u should know how much i love u. but y muz u hurt mi over n over again. y am i always e one pulling u back, and shouldering all the faults and frustrations? y am i e person crying every nite, even till now? is it really so hard for u to make a decision? all i ask from u is an answer.. for mi to be e onli girl. is it tt hard? u gave mi a fairy tale for a yr... gave mi love and care... and made mi step into this r/s completely, and in e end, onli to tell mi u still cant give mi an answer. right now, u tell mi u still care for mi, and tt u've nvr forgotten abt mi. so y is it tt u dont sms mi anymore and tt u're giving mi e ice treatment? i dunno wad to do. for many times, i wanted to end everything. in my heart, everything is meaningless without u. right now, im still waiting and loving u.. u mean everything to mi. meanwhile, i hope u're doing fine in ur course...

there. finally done. off to slp soon. going out wif gtc tmr again. happie!!! nites ppl! =)


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